the emotional arithmetic of paying for intimacy
Sometimes I wonder if my wife knows how lonely a marriage can get. Not the kind of lonely where you're physically apart, but where you're emotionally disconnected. Where conversations become transacti
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Sometimes I wonder if my wife knows how lonely a marriage can get. Not the kind of lonely where you're physically apart, but where you're emotionally disconnected. Where conversations become transacti
I booked my first escort about six months ago. Not because I could not find other ways to meet people, but because the loneliness after my divorce had settled into something I could not shift. I lived alone in a…
I'm going to keep this vague in ways that'll probably be obvious. That's just how it is when you're from where I'm from. Belfast is a wee place. The bits that matter, the...
Just got paid from me last site job and knew straight away was gonna treat meself. Been workin construction up near Limerick for weeks now. Tough graft. Concrete pourin all day means ya need some rele
Eight years. I don't talk about it much, even here. Not sure what there is to say that's useful rather than self-indulgent. My wife died in 2015. Breast cancer. Diagnosed in March, gone by October....
Right so. My first time seeing an escort wasnt anything like I imagined. Everyone talks about the sex but no one talks about how bloody nervous you get beforehand. Like proper sweaty palms stuff.I fou
I've been thinking about writing something here for a while. Keep stopping myself. Not sure what that says about me. Probably that I overthink things. That's accurate. Two years doing this. Before...
Sarah understood something most people don't. When she put her hand on my cheek last week, it wasn't just about sex. It was about contact. Human warmth. Something I've missed since Margaret left three
Here, right, I need to tell you about the time I got recognised. Not by a client or anything, I'm on the other side of it. But I was in a booking and a lad I play GAA with was also having a booking...
Its not easy being a separated dad in Clare trying to keep some kind of personal life. Logistics are everything. My ex has the kids Monday to Thursday most weeks which gives me a narrow window. I work
Most people assume seeing an escort is just about physical release. They're wrong. Dead wrong. After five years of this, I've realized it's about something far more complicated.Take last week's encoun
I started seeing escorts about three years after the divorce. I want to be upfront about that because the reason I started matters for understanding where I am now compared to where I was. The...
I've never been good at talking to women. Not in bars, not at work, not anywhere. My brain just freezes up. I'm a software developer who can spend hours debugging complex algorithms but can't string t
I love my hometown, but Christ, the dating scene here is brutal. Moving back from Dublin felt like time traveling - suddenly I'm 22 again, except now with less hope and more desperation.The apps are u
I've been thinking a lot about money lately. Not just the usual business spreadsheets and quarterly reports, but the specific economics of seeing escorts. It's a strange marketplace, really. You're no
Right so. First time seeing an escort can mess with your head. I was legit shaking when I booked my first appointment. After my ex left me last year, I was proper lonely and knew I needed something di
Its the little conversations that tell ya everything in a small town like Tralee. Ive been running my pub for thirty years now and youll hear things. Men dont talk direct but they talk round the edges
So I guess Im writing this cause honestly who else am I gonna tell? Not my mates from uni thats for sure. Theyd lose their minds if they knew. Most of them talk big about pulling girls at the student