Since the separation two years back, Im finding out how expensive it is to basically run two households. Child support, separate rent, keeping both places somewhat decent. Its a financial squeeze that makes seeing an escort feel almost like a calculated budgeting decision.
Used to be when the kids are with their mother on alternate weekends I could breathe a bit. Now those weekends have become my own small window of personal time. Not just for escorts but for feeling like an adult who isnt just a dad. Clare is small. Everyone knows everyone. So discretion isnt just a preference its survival.
Last month I saw Maria twice. Shes originally from Brazil but works out of Limerick. The sessions arent just about sex. Sometimes its the conversation. Being heard. Being seen as a whole person not just a separated dad who shuttles between two homes.
The financial math is brutal. Child support, two rents, occasional escort visits. Its not sustainable long term. But right now its how I keep myself together. One weekend at a time.