Right so. My first time seeing an escort wasnt anything like I imagined. Everyone talks about the sex but no one talks about how bloody nervous you get beforehand. Like proper sweaty palms stuff.
I found Sophia through an agency in Cork. Shes Brazilian, mid 20s, absolutely gorgeous. But jeez like the hours before the booking were pure torture. I must have changed my shirt three times. Checked my wallet about fifty times. Kept thinking maybe Id bottle it.
The drive over was mad. My brain was doing loops. Part excitement, part terror. Wondering if shes gonna judge me. Wondering if Im gonna be shit in bed. All these mad thoughts racing.
Truth is breakup left me proper lonely. Hadnt been with anyone in months. Wasnt just about the sex. Wanted human connection. Someone to touch me. Listen to me. Make me feel sound again.
When I finally met her everything relaxed. Shes professional. Makes you feel comfortable. Didnt feel weird at all. Just felt human. Which I guess was what I needed most.